My Calling

I just put my head phones and put it on high volume and kept it playing but i
dint keep them on my head ...i kept them on the table..but i was able to hear even then.

As i was talking to God...i dint concentrate for while even as the song was playing...
and As i was talking to God ...God taught me today..that

For me to understand and feel his heart beat i need to go through trials and sufferings
and pain so that i can understand what God goes through when we behave foolishly and sin against
the Lord.

As i was a little scared the way God told me tht i would have to suffer a lot...
Just then God made me diver my attention to the song at the exact moment ...
where the song sang " ALL GONNA BE OK"....from Believe Me from Zoe girl band.
I just remembered How God said to Moses that he was going to be with HIM when he told him to go to
he wanted him to free them from pharaoh....
and so now iam going to watch it....ill continue writing after i see tht FAVOURITE CLIP OF MINE
WHERE GOD TALKED TO MOSES IN THE BUSH!!!!

so When i saw the video....i just tried to relate everything
God spoke to Moses as
God speaking to me...
Then God said " i have seen the oppression of my people, and
have heard their cry!!!!! (( I felt God telling me to go to the people of uttar pradesh..i felt
i have calling towards these people))
So i have come down to deliver them out of slavery and bring them to a good land a land
flowing with milk and Honey (( From land of slavery of sin and ignorance to land of worshipping the MOST HOLY
AND TRUE AND EVER LOVING!!!))
and so unto pharoah i shall send you...(( By this God told me that he wants me to go against all the EVIL spirits at work in this land))

Moses says... Who iam to lead these people.....i was the son of the man who killed their children and
then moses says that u have chosen the wrong messenger...
HOW CAN I EVEN SPEAK TO THESE PEOPLE..(( AS Moses was saying this statement..i just remembered that
i was not good in speaking Hindi which i knew when i stood before in the church to testify
and i had a hard time to express myself in Hindi....
But then as i was just thinking........ God said in the video
WHo gave Man his mouth?
WHO MAKES HIM DEAF OR MUTE?
WHO GIVES HIM SIGHT OR MAKES HIM BLIND?
Is it not I,the Lord?
Now Go;
I will help you speak and will teach you what to say!!!!! God told me this the moment i was thinking i cant speak hindi that well ))

I asked God if it is ur Will tell me clearly ....is my call is to go for the people of Uttar pradesh..
Then I said i will look down on this Specific Bible page which was already open as i was speaking to God and told God that...
if you somehow tell me from this page and i told him i will be looking not at the entire page but only the left bottom part of the page.
and i told him to tell me from the verses there only...

And as i looked at tht page...God exactly led me to left bottom part where i saw first the word "u" i dint even see the entire word as i was
searching for a word starting with "u" is there in the passage i told God to show me from!!!

And then the next moment i saw what the word was and it was "UP"..................
God told me Uttar Pradesh very clearly... it was there in Hosea 8:4....
Which entirely talks HOW MUCH GOD IS DISPLEASED WITH THE IDOLATORY THERE!!!

A Mouthpiece for God

“How can I give you up? How can I let you go?
How can I forsake you? My heart cries out within me.
How I long to help you!” (Hosea 11:8-Living)


by God’s unchanging, longsuffering, compassionate
love, that perpetually desires to bring His backslidden
people back to Him and to genuine holiness


*********************Just today as i was travelling in the evening and talking to
God ...i remembered about the prophecy a srilankan pastor told me...
tht day was the time he was going back to sri lanka after spending a camp with him at church.
And was expecting him to put his hands on me and pray for a while and give some prohecy to me
about the new year as it was the new year night.
But he was not praying...i still waited ...he prayed for many other people...but he dint!!!

Then when i got a chance i told that Pastor please pray....He told me

1) Be a mouth piece for GOD.
2) Grow in the Lord.

I just remembered this today!!!!!!!
And now when i checked my mail...i got frommy weekly message from zac poonen
the same thing.....and just yesterday God gave me glimpse of how it is to look
through God's eyes....
where i understood that when u see people rejoicing in the Lord its a
delight COZ ITS NOT THEM THEY BECOME FACES OF THE HOLY SPIRIT!!!!!

So its the Holy Spirit itself manifesting among the brethern as they
EVERYTHING THEY DO IS FOR THE GLORY OF GOD!!!
When they sing...they sing unto the Lord and when they dance they sing unto the Lord!
below is an excerpt from tht!!!!!


"First of all, ask God to take you through deep experiences
whereby you get to know Him –
experiences of trials,
sufferings and
pain.

Then God will make you His mouthpiece to many people.
Walk with God in secret.
Humble yourself
under whatever God sends in your life."

God told me not to talk muchhhhhhh

God told me this to me because i love gossiping and i talk a lotttttttttt
and i love to talk sooo much that if i suddenly get into the mood of talking
anything i will continually keep blabbing all about it!!!


Proverbs 18:21 says, "Death and life are in the power of the tongue:
and they that love it shall eat the fruit thereof.”

"But I say unto you, That every idle word that men shall speak,
they shall give account thereof in the day of judgment.
For by thy words thou shalt be justified,
and by thy words thou shalt be condemned" (Mt.12:36-37).