Lost Child

Iam writing this because the grace of the Lord has shown me something i was not able to comprehend before!

From the past few days i was so away from the Lord but i dint realize that until God brought me much closer to make me realize how far i was....
I spent an entire day sinning....bluntly turning against God coz i knew what God wanted me to do but i was not able to !!
Just then my cell rang and there was a message....and i saw and it said...

Call to me and i will answer you , And i will tell you wondrous things, secrets you have not known. Jeremiah 33:3

I was shocked ...i was like..... God!!!!....iam trying to run away from you...YOU SHOULD BE SCOLDING ME IN THE WORST CASE!!
But i was like HOW COULD HE HAVE SAID THAT!!!
I knew how blunt i was trying face away from God and he said Call to me!!
Even though i was filled with so much negativity ....i just started praying...i dint feel like praying...i was ashamed and i dint want to face him!!
And here he was saying Call to me...and so i called and said
God i am so much away from you....my heart has become so hard i know ...for iam not able to feel your touch on my heart....
He told me to take out a book which i was reading..."HE CHOSE THE NAILS" by MAx Lucado..
THe moment i opened it....the title was saying ....I WILL NOT ABANDON YOU!!!
How can God say such a thing when i have been so unfaithful to him!!

There was a small story on that page..
"Madeline came back that night but not for long.
Joe(Madeline's father) never faulted her for leaving.After all, what its like being the daughter of a butcher?

In their last days together he tried so hard. He made her favourite dinner-she didn't want to eat. He invited her to a movie-she stayed in her room.
He bought her a new dress- she dint even say thank you.And there was that spring day he left work early to be at the house when she arrived home from school.
Wouldn't you know that was the day she never came home....."

The story was no doubt pointing to me for i was lost and running away from God and he said that He is trying so hard to be with me again.....
HE THE VERY GOD WHO CREATED EVERYTHING I EVER SAW....
Caringgggggggg.....sooooo much that he is desiring, he is desperate as the father in this story...
And then in the later part of the story....the girl who goes to live her own lifestyle gets ruined and then understands the Love that her father gave to her....But she was soo ashamed to go back...her father would send letters but she wouldn't open them...
But one day....she got a Note and it was personally handed by her father to the place where she was....
The girl was first shocked to know her own father gave her a note...
and this time when she saw the note....it said...

" I KNOW WHERE YOU ARE!!
I KNOW WHAT YOU DO, This Doesn't change the way i feeel.What I've said in each letter is still true."

Then she opened those letter she kept stacking up....and all the letters said the same thing...
"Will you come Home and dance with your poppa again??"

Saying this sentence is too hard....for how could one say that when he knows that his son is living a wayward life...
But God was asking me this...i couldn't stop crying...What am i Dad...iam not even worthy of calling you like that!!!

Then God told me to look at Luke 15:11-24
Asi started to read the Holy Spirit made me realize this
1) Jesus was telling this parable...
And the parable was about a Man and his two sons..Younger who is lost and Older who was with him..
So God is telling here about two types of people in this world..those who are faithful and those who aren't!!
But as you see in this parable God talks about the one who is lost than the one who is there with him!.
I was beginning to realize that this is the story of every person who ever existed !!!
Coz We all have sinned
and
we all have fallen short of his grace
and
we all got lost!!
So Jesus here was revealing to me his heart as i read the story ...
I realized that as God was telling this parable he was thinking of every person and many of them whom he loved enough to call him his sons...but they dint make the choice to make him their father.
I started to be filled with grief as i felt pain of God's heart as he told that story for he knew about all his children who are forever lost.
For he would have remembered all his children whom he showered his Love upon...
Just imagine if a mother lost her only son and you ask her how he got lost...
She would cry and wail and say how he was with her till the last moment and then got lost!..

These feelings are given by none but our God who feels the same way...he created everything...how we would feel is also same as how God would feel!!
The Love of God ....can be seen in a mother and father's love for their child.
And that's the reason God was very particular about honouring your parents...
Coz the relationship he designed between a parent and a child is a replica of the relationship between God and his Children!!

How heartbreaking is this sentence for the father when a son wishes his father to let him go away from him...as the story starts here saying
"Father, give me my share of the estate"

God made us for the very purpose to have fellowship with him ...that they can Love each other.
And when we choose to turn our face away from him....God cant stand it...his heart gets filled with pain.

God knows our future...and where we would end up!!! SO how difficult would it be for the father to LET GO OF HIS SON!!
For he knows that he designed him to be in his hand....but at the same time when his son doesn't wish ..so God is forced to honour the gift of freewill..

If we read the parable we can realize that ..
The thing which actually made him come to his senses as the verse says in
Luke 15:17
When he came to his senses,
he said ,'How many of my father's hired men have food to spare, and here iam starving to death!'

He realized the LOVE OF HIS FATHER.....Was so much that even the servants lived at ease...
The World is cruel my dear friends...for it is not of God..It never knew him..
And its only the Love that God showed us on the cross that can truly save us from our every affliction...
No matter how much alone we think we are in our afflictions,trials temptations,addictions, ITS ALL A LIE....For we know we have a Father...
WHO IS SAYING TO US...

" I KNOW WHERE YOU ARE!!
I KNOW WHAT YOU DO, This Doesn't change the way i feeel.
"Will you come home to me again ...in arms....my dear child"

As we read in the parable that the son actually thought of asking his father to make him his servant...
But when he actually went there....
His Father on the very sight of him ....
as the verse says...
But while he was still a long way off, his father saw him and was filled with compassion for him; he RAN to his son , threw his arms around him and kissed him.

and when the son said...
"Father I have sinned against heaven and against you. I am no longer worthy to be called your son."
The moment he said this ...the father dint let him say another word....In this case the father was none but Jesus himself and the son is none but US!!

And since Jesus already knew what the son was going to say abt asking him to hire him as his servant.He dint even let him speak that sentence...for he was his SON!! and he COULD NOT BEAR THE THOUGHT OF THINKING HIM OF AS A SERVANT....though we don't even deserve to be treated as a servant of the Lord..!!

But it is written ....For the Father LAVISHED HIS LOVE UPON US!!

Oh....the Love of the Lord....is toooo good to not know about!



May God and our Lord Jesus Christ and the Holy Spirit make each one of you who read this what he made me experience as he told me!!

If you have been touched by the Lord....Praise God for his Love.
If u dint..then why dont you CALL UPON HIM ...for he said HE WILL ANSWER!!

HE answered me and he will surely answer you!!
For the creator of the universes and much beyond is declaring this!!