What is Spiritual Growth???(A MUST READ- MY FALL!!! and MY RISE)

Scripture taken into consideration is 2 peter 1:3-4

****Whose power
His divine power=>Not by our own strength...only by his power

HAS GIVEN US=>Not to be given but already given...

***What has been given and for what???
EVERYTHING WE NEED

**For what???
LIFE AND GODLINESS**=>God knows what u need in Ur life and also that u need to have his presence in your life and he is going to give you ample things for you to fulfill...for the birds do not have dearth...they have enough to eat...he created it that way.
Jesus says they have just as enough food as we have by storing food in barns...
Birds JUST TRUST IN GOD FOR FOOD AND HE PROVIDES....He made them tht way...they Just depend on him ...no choice!!!
But we have choice either...we can be foolish enough to think we can fulfill our own needs
ORRRRRR
Just Leave everything on God for we know HE CARES!!!!!!

**If you ask How do you get these????.
THROUGH OUR KNOWLEDGE OF HIM!!!!!!!!!!!
So the more u know him .....the more u know what it is to live....
and
***how he called us??
Who called us by HIS own glory and goodness!!

**Becoz of his glory he called us...bcoz he is glorified in loving us he called us!!!
**bcoz of his goodness...bcoz he is all perfect....bcoz he is ALL GOOD THT CAN EVER EXIST!!!!

**Bcoz of his love,tht amazing unexplainable Love of God!!!

**And becoz of these he has given us something else!! i.e. given below!
Through these
he has given us***ALREADY GIVEN GUYS!!!!!!! Not "TO BE GIVEN" But "ALREADY GIVEN" lets see below wht he given us..
HIS(His very own, from out of his heart...OUT OF THE HEART OF GOD!! Imagine HEART OF A GOD-THE MOST PERFECT PERSON EVER)
VERY GREAT AND PRECIOUS PROMISES( wow....if God means the word precious ...can we even think of how much care he is going to take to make these precious promises come true!!!)
So that through them....
*******THIS IS WHAT GOD WANTS***********
YOU MAY PARTICIPATE IN THE DIVINE NATURE
***Lets elaborate wht is written above
In the nature of God...
See like he sees,
Feel like he feels,
Think like he thinks...
Love like he loves...
Touch like he touches...
Smell like he smells...
Taste like he tastes...
Hear like he hears.


See like he sees things....
God sees nothing as difficult
God sees nothing as impossible
God sees everything as beautiful
God sees everyone as the most beautiful delicate petals of the most beautiful flower
God sees the pain of his loved ones.
God sees our deepest desires.
God sees our heart and its motives
God sees our sin and cries for tht(John 11:35...Jesus dint cry for lazarus...he cried bcoz ppl were still
so unbelieving that even after they see all the miracles Jesus did..they couldnt understand tht he can do
things they can never even dream of !!!!

God sees us that when we are in sin ..we are just like wounded from head to toe...
(Isaiah 1:5,6=> """""What good will it do to keep punishing you? You will continue to rebel.
Your whole head and heart are already sick and aching.(Our spiritual body groans with pain over the sinful lusts of our body)
From the bottom of your feet to the top of your head,
every part of your body has wounds, cuts, and open sores.
You have not taken care of them. Your wounds have not been cleaned and bandaged.""""'

See the way God described as seeing us...
Lets analyze deeper....""YOUR WHOLE HEAD""..Head represents the one in control of our entrire BOdy...
its like the MAIN CONTROL SYSTEM...God finds tht itself as sick...bcoz of the SICK THOUGHTS>>>WE ALLOW IN OUR MIND
And About our heart he sees as aching ...bcoz he made it so perfect to house him but we have been harbouring every
stupid thought in our hearts and since heart was not meant for tht...OUR HEART ACHES TO HARBOUR STUPID THINGS IN IT PLACE MEANT FOR THE KING OF KINGS!!

Imagine the most horribly afflicted person you ever saw in your life...
WIth wounds and open sores....remember tht ghastly picture!!!
Thts how God sees us!!
How does a wound not bandaged or cleaned look like!!

God sees our health
God sees our emotions
God sees when we cry
God sees us when we are happy
God sees us when are in need
God sees when we desire something
God sees us when we pray
to be continued!!!


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Im continuing this the next day.....and in between this itself i have sinned again....

Pathetic me...........
Im feeling so pathetic..
After all this....i mean God revealed me sooooooooooooo beautiful things i could ever imagine...i feel so pathetic as to
HOW DID I ALLOW THE DEVIL TO FOOL ME SO MUCH!!!!! AND BLIND ME!!!!!

Today i cried a lot....as i was getting scared i wouldnt end up with God after all this...
bcoz if this goes on...the devil will overpower me anytime..and then i would get lostt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Then i closed my eyes and imagined tht if i wouldnt have these eyes...WOuldnt it be great coz i can always imagine God!!!!!!!!
All i can Imagine is God and me!!!!!!

I told God this!!"""""God you know if i would end up with you or not in the END for eternity""" and so i asked him
if any of my body parts acts as a hindrance in my relationship with you...i told him God i cant do it myself but u
remove them!!!

Mainly i was talking abt removing my eyes...coz all i wanted was to see him and not the corruption of the world...

AS i cried as to how much these eyes see corrupted things!!!!!!!! and devil was using my eyes!!!!! and in how many clever ways it was always deceiving me one way or the other!!!

Then God told me ""Do u have any idea how much i cry seeing the corruption of the perfect world i created!!!!

All i did was to love it and now i have to see my own creation inolving in ghastly improper acts...""

NOW i understood yesterday i asked God to help see things like he sees...

Today God really put wht goes through the mind of a Blind man....
AS i so desperately crying and asking God to pluck out my eyes...

Then i opened my eyes and realized tht as to How beautifully our eyes were designed to SOOOOOOOOOOOOO many billion variations of
colours all around us...

As i tried to look around my room and see how my eye was able to perceive all these infinitical combinations of color...

And so i God wanted me to dedicate my eyes for him and in case if i see something bad...i pray the Holy SPirit would just
make me remmeber who these eyes belong to or just blur wht is bad tht my eyes cant see or wont concentrate!!!

He made our eyes sooooo perfect so that we can see the perfect blend of the creator's creation...
not the crap tht we humans create and want to see out of the evil desires of our filthy hearts!!!

AND ULTIMATELY HE WANTS US TO SEE HIM NOT THE FILTHY WORLD WHICH WE HAVE AROUND US!!!!!!

So lets dedicate all our body parts and pray for each of them separately to be used for GOD'S GLORY ONLYYYYYYYY......



Here is a song of the POD(PAYABLE ON DEATH) band which i was hearing during all this..It really shows the pain and desperation
which i was going through exactly in words....And its where you are talking to the devil...
and as we desperately shout at it and express the pain we go through after foolishly submitting us to it!!!!

This is how any drug addicted person would feel..he knows it is wrong...but couldnt stop it!!!!!!

Some of you wont understand the song or may feel it is unscriptural....but understand tht not all songs are written for
guys and gals like you...there are different sets of people going through different horrible things of life...
It is only to those people tht it makes sense to!!!

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Intoxicated world, boys and girls
Deal me up another hit of self mutilation
Let me blow my brains, go insane
Throw it in my face and watch me chase
Stimulate, wide awake
Need to stop this pain inside my head, cause it's laughing at me
Injection, explosion, burning as it surges through my veins.

Cause I, I'm addicted to all the colors that I see, that you hold in front of me
You have changed, yeah you have changed me
Why do I love you when I know, love you when I know you're wrong.

Over and overindulges in anyone or anything that makes you feel, so alive.
I am electrified, I'm so high, known to all of you who are just out to get me.
Fascinate, magistate, cast a spell and maybe I might forget who I am.(((((((((((((WHO I BELONG TO))))))))))))))))
Cowered in selfishness, thank you for letting us watch you die.

Because I, I'm addicted to all the colors that I see, that you hold in front of me
You have changed, yeah you have changed me
why do I love you when I know, love you when I know that I
I'm addicted to all the colors that I see, that you hold in front of me
You have changed, yeah you have changed me
Why do I love you when I know, I love you when I know you're wrong

Liar!

You are a liar!
Liar!
You are a liar!

Because I, I'm addicted to all the colors that I see, that you hold in front of me
You have changed, yeah you have changed me
Why do I love you when I know, love you when I know
that I, I'm addicted to all the colors that I see, that you hold in front of me
You have changed, yeah you have changed me
Why do I love you when I know, I love you when I know, you're wrong.

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If you can see i actually stopped at part of the sentence where it is written "IN THE DIVINE NATURE" yesterday i dint even read rest of the line...

But Now see after wht God taught me ...now i see the rest part of the line it says the same thing which God taught without me reading the other line!!!!!!!

And the other line is """""""AND ESCAPE THE CORRUPTION IN THE WORLD CAUSED BY EVIL DESIRES""""""



Friends for everyone who is reading these.....God talked to me as you can see how he wonderfully works out!!!
HE TALKED TO ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I BETRAYED YET HE DINT GIVE ME UP!!!


SO friends....NO MATTER WHAT YOU HAVE DONE..........THERE IS NOTHING THAT CAN SEPARATE US FROM THE LOVE OF GOD!!!!!

COZ THE BOND OF LOVE OUR GOD HAS FOR US CAN NEVER BE BROKEN BUT ITS ONLY THT DEVIL MASK OUR EYES TO MAKE US FEEL THAT WAY!!!!!!!

BUT IT CAN NEVER BE BROKEN!!!!!!!!


No matter wht youve done...JUST COME BACK AND GOD WILL CLEAR UP ALL YOUR MESS WHTEVER IT MIGHT BE!!!!!!!!

He cleared my mess....I know I have seen...

ALL U GUYS HAVE TO DO IS COME BACK!!!!!

For this all u need to desperately call upon him....CRY OUT YOUR HEART FOR HIM!!!!!!!!

ITS JUST HIM!!!!!!!!!

For it is written...
Romans 8:26,27,28
"The Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express.
AND HE WHO SEARCHES OUR HEARTS, KNOWS THE MIND OF THE SPIRIT,BECAUSE THE MIND OF THE SPIRIT,BECAUSE THE SPIRIT INTERCEDES FOR THE SAINTS IN ACCORDANCE WITH GOD's WILL!!"
AND WE KNOW THAT IN ALL THINGS GOD WORKS FOR THE GOOD OF """THOSE WHO LOVE HIM""""
WHO HAVE BEEN CALLED ACCORDING TO HIS PURPOSE.."