Annonymous

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AnonymouS
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This is an awful person writing here!!!!!

Well i prefer to stay anonymous bcoz iam ashamed of my doings....
But i would surely testify against this wondrous doing of the Lord in this sinner's life!!

Right from yesterday evening to today's break....i hae given myself up to the evil one.
I just ignored God and his words as i just went to follow the desires of my body.

Well God spoke to me many times and i knew wht his Love was....
but i slipped into ignorance and a Hard Hearted as i chose my pleasures over God.

well i was watching pornography all night long...i was watching all night long till the morning..

I saw one movie after another without stopping...and me doing it without even sleeping
shows the amount of Hold i gave to the devil..

I knew God was trying to get me out of it...but i bluntly turned my face away from him..
And my heart was already very hardened.

I almost kept watching one movie or the other till about 7:30 am when i slept as i was still watching...
I should have easily skipped my breakfast coz it ends by 10:00 am and
since i slept just at 7:30 am....
i should have got up much later and missed my breakfast!!!!!!

But i somehow got up at 9:45 am itself...and when i got up and had a look at my watch...
I was like
Did God just wake me up????????
I was surprised that he cared abt my breakfast even after my sinful life all night long...

The moment i said this...God somehow made me turn my head...to a verse on the wall
which i ve written and HE EXACTLY TURNED MY EYES EXACTLY TO THIS VERSE on the wall..
This was the verse...
"He answers HIM from his HOly Heaven!!!!!!!"Psalm 20
((You can understand how much i was in addiction tht i was ignoring even the verses which ive written on my wall and kept sinning by turning a blind eye to them!!))

I was SHOCKED!!!!!!!!!!

I surely dint at all expect God to reply first of all and tht too so quick!!!!!!!!

AS i still was in shock as to why God answered me and WHY God is caring about me
even after all that ive done till morning!!

God just turned my head to another verse on the hanging of my wall...and it said...
"I will Sup with him." Revelation 3:20

I felt may be its my mind its automatically searching for verses that relate
to eating and not God....

But the moment i said that God literally again turned my head to exactly one part of this verse
and i saw as rest of the sentence was blurred and only this stood out!!!

And it said "Father feeds them" Matthew 6:32

And im still in amazement and surprise...
and i started to remember what God spoke to me again and again.

When i went to the mess....there was a long line and i thought of skipping...
But i remembered God told me that he will feed them....So i waited and
even when it was a Big Line it got over much faster than usual!!!!

AS i considered what he spoke to me...

I couldn't even come to terms
What he told me the first time....Tht is "He answers him from his Holy Heaven"
I was like tht means God was watching over me all night....
Even when i was sinning
Even when it was hurting him watching me like that
He just waited for tht very moment all night long ....
Tht very moment when i would say

God are u really talking to me?????

And when i said that he dint wait another second but quickly responded that
he answers me from Hid holy Heaven.!!!!

Just now...as i put my face downcast and put up a sad face...and i was just thinking if
my roommate would observe the sadness of my face and ask me...
Well tht very moment God showed me a Smiley Smiling face on the corn flakes cover which was on my desk.

Friends...u have seen How God dint let me go!!!!!
If he forgave me....even after all it tht i have done....
tht just shows How Much How Much How Much How Much.............................
How Much
God Loves Us!!


Dear Dad..i just dont know what to say Lord...
All i want to do now is Lord to Have You In all of my thoughts lest i should stray away
from YOU and cause u pain in loving Heart!!!!


Friends....Do keep me in your prayers as an anonymous person itself as God knows me...
That i will have victory in life every single moment for Christ!!!....
because He deserves it!!!!!
He deserves to be Glorified with a Holy Life!!!!

Help me Love You Lord God and My saviour Christ.